Meteors, comets, stardust......

I love you. I have loved you since the moments I laid my eyes on you. I left you alone for years thinking you would never have me, thinking you would never look at me. I tried my best to make a life, but your very being haunted my soul. I love you totally, with my very being.
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I cannot believe we are finally together. You are so beautiful. No one has ever made me feel this way. You are the very reason my heart beats. When I close my eyes your face is emblazoned behind my lids. When I heard this song over the years all I saw was you.

Everyone knows how much I love you, how I have pined for you, longed for you. I wish words could express the way I feel for you, but words fall short. I love you, I am yours always.

Last night my brother and I spent two hours talking about how amazing you are. My feelings never faded for you, and never will. Your eyes haunt my every waking hour.

I miss you. I dreamt about you. Since I left your city many years ago my life has been missing a light. Now you are mine my life is whole. I love you. My life is empty without you.
I know you are going through a lot, just know I love you, and will be there if you will have me or not.
The world is a blur, all I can see, think, feel is you.


You are above everything else in my life. Wish you were here. Each day I am apart from you gets harder, and hurts. My life will never be complete until I am with you. I will try to make you happy for the rest of your life. I love you always. I miss you every single moment. I am consumed by my love for you. I will love you always the way I love you right now.There will always be apart of me missing until I can be with you forever.

My heart is empty when you are not here. I promise I will spend the rest of my life trying to make you happy. With my entire soul I love you. I love you without question, and I will continue to do so forever. I never told you Barefoot and broken was written about you.

You obsess my every thought. I love your replies to me, keep them coming. Thanks for listening today, you really cheered me up. I will spend my whole life trying to make you happy.
I am at home watching crap on TV and missing you like crazy. Good morning Babe. My friends all say congratulations. Everyone thinks you are amazing.

I love you more than my existence. Hoping you're having a good night out, haven't been able to reach you.
I miss you, your fiance.
You fill me with so much happiness where I had none. You are all I think about, I cannot even work. I find words redundant, they never express how I feel for you. I am eternally grateful to you for showing me what it feels like to be loved.

De profundis amore. I exist for you. Of all the millions of people I have met in the world, none have lit up my soul like you. You are the love of my life. Give a kiss to your baby for me.

I cannot exist without you.

You never have to say sorry to me, you could never do anything to upset me. No day feels right without you by my side. Everything that is happening here, I can only think of you. Only you make me truly happy.
I love you for eternity.

If I asked you to marry me would you say yes?

Help, I am besieged by ya-ya's and toffs. Hope you are enjoying the party. Thinking of you all the time.
I exist only for you.

You are always in my dreams. The happiness you make me feel is immeasurable. I will try to make you happy forever. You light up my soul. Having a baby with you would be the most amazing thing that could happen to me. Our baby would be the most beautiful baby ever born.

I could spend every night not sleeping and just talking this way. My heart beats for you. No one ever cared for me the way you do. You look after me so well. When I lived with them I never said anything, as they had their child to look after, but there was no food for me unless I ate at work.
Don't ever apologise, you only do what is right for us. I am a doofus............................ You show me compassion that no one has ever shown me.....

​I love you. You are an amazing mother. How do you do that? How do you so easily show love and emotion to her? You have no fear or hesitation to bare your feelings to her. We never showed emotions growing up. No one in my family would ever say I love you. Thank you for loving me, for looking after me, for showing me care I have never experienced. ...................................................................


​I find it hard to find words. I am not good at expressing my true emotions. I am feeling immense love right now but I am obviously not showing it very well.

It is not disrespect to come home at this time. You know I went to work, then we all went for drinks,where else would I be.You never listen.You are so difficult.I can't stand this..........I love you.

I am sorry, I get frustrated. I don't know how to process how badly I behaved, then feel ashamed at treating you badly when all you do is treat me so well. I will think carefully before I speak the next time there is an issue.

I can't wait to grow old together. Can you imagine the both of us old and crinkly madly in love and horny as hell? You are so beautiful. I have never met someone who looks so perfect as you. It is as if you were drawn. Everywhere you go people look at you. No one looks at me, do they?

You are so talented, you can do anything you want to. You are so clever, I have never been so clever, I am just a bumbling little boy from a land across the water where we know little about nothing. You are so elegant, you make everything look easy. When can we get married? I just want you to be my wife now. I love you so much. I can't imagine my life without you. ...........................................................

I just can't make you happy can I? Am I supposed to spend my whole life trying? I did do that, you just didn't see it or want to believe it.

It was no one, a wrong number. No,I wasn't on the line for so long, stop being so suspicious, I hung up straight away. I wasn't speaking to anyone you must have imagined it. You are tired got to bed. You haven't been feeling well for a long time , I think it is taking it out of you.

What would I do without you? If something happened to you my life would end. Without you I don't exist..........................

I told you I had to go for this work thing. I am sure I did. Well it is just some place in the country. What would happen? You look after them both when I am at work. Are you going to make me feel guilty now by pretending you didn't know? You are unbelievable, nothing ever makes you happy. I work so hard, do nothing for myself, and the moment I want to you try to stop me...............

Where did I go? I spent days roaming around thinking about taking a rope from the boot of the car and hanging myself. You are driving me crazy. Nothing I do is good enough.
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Lie down here baby. Don't worry I will look after you. Look at you, you are so unwell, you work so hard for us all, looking after the house, the kids, work, let me take some of that off you, and you just sit down. I will do everything you don't have to think about a thing.

No, why would I need new clothes? You're always looking after us all, treat yourself, buy something nice for you.

My brother told me I should do this, it is the best move for my career. So I should listen to you about it? He has known me my whole life, and my industry, this new guy is from my land, he will look after me like no one else would. He appreciates family, will give us the best balance we could have...............

I am sorry but they just need me to do doubles all this week. I know you are in the hospital but they don't care about that, we can't open if I come away. He is not happy about the time at appointments, thank you, that would be great. If anything serious happens just call me. ......................................................................................................................................................................................

I had to go, you gave me no choice, you want answers and I have no answers to what you ask. You are so difficult to love. You can't just be nice can you? Just polite, agreeable? Everyone else finds it easy, but no you always have to have something.

Some. Little. Thing. Always.

I am an easy guy, don't want much in life, don't need anything......................You are amazing. I can't take my eyes off you wherever you are in the room. Every man in this room envies me. I am the luckiest man in the world.

You don't have to do that job, do whatever you want to do.

What will we do for childcare then? No I don't want my children to be in full time care either. At boarding school I ate toothpaste because I was so hungry. Sometimes they left me there at the weekend and just picked up the others.

You are the most intelligent person I know, You can be whatever you wanted to be when you are ready....................................

Missing you. Everyone at work gets so bored because all I do is talk about you all day. You could do everyone's work here hands down. Actually please do. Some of the women who work here are so thick. It's ya-ya and Jimmy Choos. They wouldn't know a spreadsheet if it slapped them across the face. Tell me you'll come and work for me instead?

Well there is a company policy, no spouses. One day, one day you will show them all............................................

It will be huge, will be so boring though. Listening to all these people I can't stand drivel on about their stupid opinions, and arse wipe ideas when I could be at home with you?

If only you could have seen it, it was beautiful, you would love it, I will take you there. It was such a painful night, every minute I just thought of you, and how I wish we were wrapped up together. If I won the lottery tomorrow I would blow them all away. .....................
I missed you I thought I would pick you up. No worries you can go for drinks if you want I don't mind, I just wanted to say Hi because I  missed you, I'll take the kids and head back and get some dinner. You go on, have fun, stay out as late as you like. No no I'll put them to bed, you get out there, I just thought I would get the kids together and say hi................................................................................

What do you want to know? They are just people I work with, all really boring. I could take you in and show you around if you want. But you won't be impressed, it's a boring bunch, and you will be surprised I work there. I would feel ashamed for you to see me with people not so clever or glamorous as you would work with................................

They loved you. Everyone kept telling me how beautiful you are. You are so clever, I told you, everyone was going on about how clever my wife was, and how they couldn't believe you had children, and together we both look so young.............................

Oh no I would never hang out with these people out of work. I would prefer to be with you, I don't need anyone else. I don't want to do a sport, I am too tired, and never get to see you. Yes we went to school together, but we don't have anything in common anymore. They just want to blow money in toff places, daddy this daddy that, no one has done anything for themselves. They don't know what real life is...............................................

I only took everyone's number for you babe. I wanted them all to like you at your new job, so if I came and kept up with them I could tell them all how amazing you are..................................................I don't want you working there, it worries me, you are not safe there.......................

If I take this job I get to make up for all the other ones I messed up. I now know the mistakes I made, I can stay focused, and not mess up again. We will have the life we always wanted.....................

They love you, everyone raved about how beautiful you are. They couldn't believe how young you look, and that you had children. You could easily run rings around these people. You are amazing. He is a tyrant, he doesn't know much, just how to walk around like he does. He won't let me take the time off. ......................

You never. Never. You never know how to deal with things.

You just swipe it under the carpet. Well done you.Thought you went six months without arguing with me and now you are a saint? Oh look everyone, she managed to keep quiet and now that means she can deal with things. That's right just stay quiet, you never know how to deal with anything.........


I didn't do anything. I just tapped you. You do not walk away from me when I am speaking to you. Go on cause a drama, sit there acting like you are hurt. Me? Me? Call the police then. Everyone knows what I am like, I am an easy guy, don't know how to say things properly, I am sure the neighbours would agree you were the one shouting. ...................Get up. Get up and get yourself together, how dare you ruin Christmas for the children. They are heart broken and scared................I will get on with dinner...................it is probably ruined now.
The kids.
I take you out for a simple meal, it is so beautiful and you just can't be grateful can you? I did not throw the pen at you. You were being ungrateful. You just ruined it all for us.

I had to get it for you, I know how much you loved it. It is ok, don't worry about that, you deserve everything in the world. I wish I could get you more, shower you with everything you should have. You are just perfect, you do not have a single flaw. You should never apologise. I am really bad at admitting fault, then I project it back. I am ashamed later I see it. You need to remember that, whatever I do you should always just think the best intentions are there, and it is not a reflection on you. You could never do anything wrong. I don't know anyone like you.

You have made me the happiest man in the world. I want for nothing. I have everything. My heart is so full it could burst.

She is no one, nothing, no idea who she is.......................................I love you.......................I could never. Never. Ever be with anyone else. Ever. It is a disgusting thought.

It is not mine, it was for a guy at work, he is a player, it was to wind him up. Why would I need one? I have you. Of course, you are beautiful. ............You are too clever anyway, if I ever did anything you would know straight away. I would be more stupid than we know I am if I thought I would get away with it.

I tried to get in touch with them. Unless they can apologise for their behaviour, and change I don't want to have anything to do with my family. Thank you, but there is no point in flying her here,we still have to face the rest of them some time.

You are amazing. All the kids, the little one crying, still you have all of this ready for me, still looking after us all. Thank you for being so understanding. You are the most amazing person I know. I don't deserve you.

I love her. I don't know. I need to figure out what I feel.

Can I come home? I miss you all.

She is beautiful, full of life, intelligent, just took me by surprise, it was a mistake. I didn't mean it , I got carried away.

She was pretty enough, not my type really, self absorbed, thought everyone wanted her, really thick, no one hung out with her, but she really fancied herself. Made me angry, I wanted to show her. Show her she wasn't what she thought.

Maybe people aren't as good as you always think. People don't just do these things out of love, you just don't want to see it.
She was nothing, it was a game, I was angry and I just wanted to play with her, but to a lesser extent to the other one. 

I did not do anything. I did not create any of those accounts to do anything.

It was a lie.

I was just playing with them.....taunting them.

Everyone always controlled me when I was growing up, no one ever listened to me, my feelings didn't count. Now it was my turn. I wanted to be the one that hurt people, I just wanted to control people instead.

I will sleep outside the house until you let me back again. I will trawl the streets and be homeless. I will stop doing anything else as my life is nothing without you. Please don't give up on me. You are the only person that understands me. The only one who really knows me, sees me. The only one that cares. Forgive me. I am ashamed. No I cannot stay with friends, they would not understand. They are not my real friends, you are. I don't want anyone else. 

You are never going to forgive me are you? It will always be there haunting me. I have no chance. I can see it already. I will send the rest of my life making it up to you. I will forever be your slave. Hit me. Slap me. Throw something. Go mad. Rage at me. I deserve it. Please do something to me, just stop crying.

I went to the Dr. I told him about my dreams filled with raging winged women.......I told him how Tortured I felt.

I broke you.

For that I will always be sorry. I was the person to break you. You were such a happy, loving person, with such a zest for life, you had so many dreams, and I have taken it all away. For that I want to die. If you cannot forgive me or take me back. I will kill myself, I have nothing else to live for.

He tricked me. They have been emailing each other and have framed me for something I didn't do. If I wasn't so distracted trying to fix things with you I might have noticed but I missed the signs. Where would I go? I have no money to look after you all and myself if I go now.

No no you are struggling. You can barely walk, you are in so much pain, you can't also go back to work. Not after what I have put you through. You do not deserve to be broken anymore than you are. I don't like the way they treat you.

I love you. I will find something new. I will look after you, and our beautiful children. I am the luckiest man alive. No one in his right mind would have this beautiful life and family and let it go.

You look after her, stay however long you need in the hospital, and I will look after the others.Don't worry I will look after you all.

Where can I go? She cannot walk you can hardly deal with this on your own. I am stuck, there is little choice. I know, I can see it is the work I do. I get arrogant. I start wanting to walk with the big boys. I want to sit at the big table. I want them to see me. I begin to treat people badly. I need to step away from that. You and the kids are all that matters. I will get a job away from that. I agree. Yes, we can live a simpler life. We can just enjoy our family and work to pay the bills and not chase all the bright lights. I have learnt my lesson.

It is the job of a lifetime. It is what I have always wanted. If I walk away I will always wonder if I could have done it, I will always remember I almost made it to the level I wanted. I don't want to resent you. I wouldn't . If you think I shouldn't. It is enormous, could be the thing that changes our lives. I could make us secure for life.

Sorry it was a really busy day.

Hi just calling to sing the little one to sleep, I miss you so much, I don't know if I have made the right decision.

Sorry I didn't have reception all day.

My battery died.

Did we? I don't remember us booking that?

I love you so much.I remember it is one of your favourites, and you always smell so good.

He annoys the life out of me, but he's my boss what can I do? I know, just because he's going through a divorce and has no children he thinks we are all here to do as he does.

Who?    
Don't know what you are talking about? I don't know her.
Why would they email you to blackmail you?

You are never happy. You are an awful person, you cannot see how horrible you can be. How was I to know you would be worried. I was not hurt, I was sleeping. In a hotel. How was I supposed to know you would contact work? Ok fine I'll come home, but I am not happy with you at all. I have had enough.

I love you. You are so amazing. All the girls at work think you are beautiful. He's intimidated by you. He doesn't hate you, he just doesn't understand women if they are not fawning over him with a certain look or super successful................Like her.

You always misconstrue what I say I am not saying you are not attractive or intelligent. I appreciate what you do. He just doesn't get you.

Can't wait till the holidays. Driving me mad. They are all so stupid. The ideas and how they do things is so stupid. I wish you worked with me. You would sort them all out...............You would. The girls all think they are something, but can't even put make up on. They just sit around on twitter thinking that is all it takes.

I love you so much.

I can't I have too many people relying on me......................I can't get off earlier....If I am not there what impression do I give people?

It is a school concert.............................................Are they doing something different? A big production?

I did not realise you were meant to be out, if you had told me I would always make sure I was back in time.

How was I supposed to know you were really struggling? You used an emoticon, no one serious ever uses one. Yes I am angry. I decided to come home despite your tone, I resent you expecting me to read your mind. People only use emoticons for fun, it doesn't matter if it was a sad or wincing face.

I have not been avoiding you I have had a busy few days at work. Of course I care about you, just because I was swamped doesn't mean I did not think about how you were coping if it hurt to walk.


No I don't say mean things about you at work or complain. I would never say anything to anyone about you, what happens at home is our business. You know that. We are not some trashy couple who airs things to everyone. It is just life, everyone has ups and downs, I wouldn't bore people with it, it is not that interesting.

What did you say to them? Why were they calling? How are they doing at the moment? You don't have to go out, you girls are welcome to hang out in the house, and I promise to stay out of your way. Stay at home where it is cosier.I love you. I want you to have fun.

I did not know you were going out.

Do you like your champagne? Good, drink it up quietly. I have ordered you a taxi and you are going to leave this building. You are disgusting, how dare you turn your back on me.

Why is your nose bleeding? Who else was there?

Ok ok I admit it I stayed at a hotel because I was mugged. These men held me at knife point and walked me from cashpoint to cashpoint drawing out money. They kicked me repeatedly on the ground. Thank you very much for humiliating me. For bringing it up, and making me relive it.

I don't know why they didn't take the laptop, or the tablet or the blackberry. My watch? Who knows? How do I know how muggers think?

I know I bruise easily.I don't know why I didn't have any after they beat me up. I can't believe you are doing this to me.

I have to you all heard him I have to go in. We can decorate the tree another day.What was I supposed to do? I know he was crying and it was because of me, that's why I couldn't do anything.

I have to go he would be really upset after organising this if I don't. It is crazily busy, I can't afford to go, it is crazy, but how do I know how his brain works? It is so busy I cannot leave work for long periods so it is mad he thinks we can spend an entire day away at a vineyard. but he's my boss I have to.

It has nothing to do with the tree, that was different he said I had to work last minute. I can't say ok but my son wants to decorate the tree!I can't believe you can't be happy for me , now I won't be able to enjoy myself the whole time.You never think about what I want.

I didn't know that was the time you were going out. So sorry babe I would've been back if I realsied. Don't worry Ill dash back now, get ready, and you can hop on a train when I am back and catch up with them all in town.

I don't want to call them. The last Christmas I did they were not happy to hear from me, and were so frosty, and reluctant to speak to you. They controlled me, and still cannot see what they did.

I don't know why my friend's partner would say that. You and I both know she is psycho.Forget her, he is only going along with her because he has to.

I love you. You are amazing.

I have no idea why my manageress would say you were drunk the last time she saw you. I know you weren't. I have not idea why she would think I would apologise for your behaviour. You and I both know you weren't That is ridiculous. I will speak to her later.

I don't know why they never responded about the gifts you sent their kids. Frankly I am trying to figure out what I feel about him. If his mother is so racist online, and heavily supporting political parties where he lives that are dubious, what are his attitudes? He is not the person I remember.

I love you. There are few people I can trust.

I am so sorry. No way, I am arranging cover I would not miss our wedding anniversary. They can find others to help with the event next week.

I can see why people would think you attractive, but you do nothing for me. I don't know what happened.

I just realised one day you meant nothing to me anymore.There is no one else, how did I know you would ask that?

No one at work knows, I don't talk about personal things, I would never say anything like that.
They will be sad for us.

You are an awful person............I made a mistake once.

You will never let me forget it. You are controlling. You never let me do what I wanted. You stopped me seeing my friends, my family, you were not there for me in the times I needed you. You are abusive to the eldest. I have been a coward for never sticking up for her all her life.

All because I am terrified of you. I walk on eggshells, never did what I wanted.

I love my family and you parted us. I have had enough. I have had enough and do not want to spend my life making up for one mistake.

I do not love you anymore. I know it's crazy.

                               ............I still care about you....................

The words of someone who struggles to know what to say.

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